New outlook on writing after my brothers passing

On September 15, 2024 my brother passed away. And from his death, I have been more drawn to writing. Outside of writing for the most part I also make motivational videos on TikTok, I have a podcast and I am also a spoken word artist and I have a CD out and all of those things. But his death made me want to express myself in a different medium. I don't know what happened, but it made me desire writing more. Anything is I have been writing every since I was in eighth grade. I have had books out but for the most part even before my brother's death, I've been taking a break from all the things that I've mentioned before and it seems as though what emerged what is my first love which is writing.

And I don't know if riding just became an outlet that I needed. I am in a place right now that I've never been before. I never lived the life without my brother, even if we were in the same state which, for majority of our lives, we haven't really lived in the same state, but we've always had a close connection. And now I am face with the fact that I have to go on with the rest of my life without my brother and writing has been very therapeutic for me. It has allowed me to tell my story dig deep into emotions that I may not be able to express any other way, and I am grateful for that. so being asked to go to the authors event that I went to today meant so much more because they allow me to know that I was on the right path or that I am on the right path. It has awaken something in me that was dormant and it is something that I need more than ever. I need to be able to express myself. I need to be able to get these things off my chest and it may be things that I'm not sharing with the world but it is something that is keeping you in the right path is my way to release it is my way to escape.